Listening to my family and watching their family activities. I remember being told at one point to shut my window because I was not allowed to be apart of it.
In the beginning I accepted this. I made excuses for said person because I wanted to believe that I was worthy, the thing is I was worthy, that person was not worthy
You took my worst fear, which you knew, and you made it a real-life event for me.
The world we live in is happy to jump right in and tear you down just for being yourself. We are not a society of a dictatorship where we must all conform to be the “Stepford Wives” of the world, we are a society of multiple genders, colors, and beliefs, it is sad that we squander it.
I should not feel ashamed of what I could not control, the only thing I am responsible for is how I now deal with it as an adult.
I am done wasting time on those that don’t want me in their lives. I am 36 years old and it is time to refocus.
She asked me to elaborate…and I was gone.
I know how lonely I feel without him, and I am currently living in a house with other people,
Do not read into this, I am not suicidal, I am depressed.
I put my dog down, my best friend, the reason I lived when all I wanted was to die, my other half, my 15 year companion.